That’s what you get for letting your wifey know all your passwords!
So as you can tell this is NOT Richard. I am his wife Jeannie and he is always doing little things for me to show me how much he loves me so I thought I would put a blog post up, only this time it is on HIS blog.
So here goes….
Because we were so young when we met, we were both fools to not say how much we loved each other. When I think back to those days, and how innocent we both seemed in our love and certainly in our faith in God. I would have never imagined us being together today and living our life for God in the capacity that we do. Praise God that He had a better plan for our lives than we did.
I remember the first day I met you leaning against my locker. I knew that moment you were the man who God had sent to me as a gift. A gift that I came to find out would test my faith more than I could have ever known. I had to decide to be with you against everything I had ever known or felt. Against all the obstacles that I knew stood in our way. I can also remember nights of dancing with you at the Cedar Cinema, and how I felt, a little school girl of 14, with my arms around your neck and your arms around my waist just swaying to the music all night. I never felt more at ease, or safer than I did in your arms.
I loved being around you then because you were so fun and always seemed to make me in a better mood when I was down. Whether that meant barging into the girls bathroom to see why I was crying or writing me one of the many poems that you wrote, which makes me sad and I cry every time I think about it.
I often wonder why God didn’t smack us both in the head back then in letting us know we were supposed to be together. I can’t imagine what my life would have been like had we been together 32 years ago. I should have went to prom with you. I should have told you how much I love you. I should have left with you. I should have married you. I should have………… All the should haves and could haves would have done is maybe been in a life that we weren’t ready for.
I don’t think either one of us would have been ready for the life we have if we had been in the middle of it 30 years ago. My love for you is so immeasurable that I don’t have the words to explain it. I can’t imagine my life without you. All the broken roads that I have taken in my life were worth it because they all lead to you. You have brought so much into my life that I never knew existed. You are an amazing husband and father and I couldn’t have asked for more in a man to spend the rest of my life with. You WERE and ARE my knight in shining armor.
Today is a special day for me. It is Micah Marie’s birthday. I just wanted to let you know that you have been such an amazing support system and such a huge part of my grieving process. You have been the only one who I can say you truly understand when I just need to cry about how much I miss her, or how much it hurts that no one seems to notice her being gone after 20 years. I want you to know how much that means to me. You are a very special man…..in my eyes….and in God’s.